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All Kinds of Awesomeness

I am a guest blogger on my dear friend, Danielle’s blog today! Some of the images are being weird, so I uploaded the article I wrote to this post as well…thanks for including me in your blog, Danielle!

**************************************          I’ve been stewing recently.

Stewing and chewing on some truth, to be exact.

The *amazing* woman (whom I met as a junior in college and 2 years later, after I moved to Charlotte, had as my my mentor and boss, was honored to have as one of my bridesmaids, and is now a treasured friend-whom I love from afar as I watch her love her Lord, hubby, and 3 precious boys. That was way too wordy of an explanation, but you get the picture.) and I were on the phone Sunday evening.

It wasn’t long before we got deep. Which I love. (I am actually really bad at just small talking…whoops!) Somehow, we began talking about our reputations, images and the ungodly value placed on other people’s opinions of us. Not to mention our OWN opinions of ourselves!

She was telling me about her friend, who had recently spoken some great words of truth to her… and those same words resonated very deeply in my own soul… so what were those words? They went a little something like this…

“You know, often I see you get frustrated, anxious and mad whenever something seems to be threatening your awesomeness.”

*Deep breath*

“Any time the boys, or your husband or even you do something that messes with how awesome you want to be/think you are/you think others think you are, it really brings out frustration, anxiety or anger.” (I’ll insert in here, just for fun, manipulation also!)

We continued our conversation, but I kept re-playing “…threatens your awesomeness” in my mind.

That next morning, I was driving to meet with a student and I was flustered by how disheveled our house was and how long my to-do list had become. I was on the verge of frustration when I hit some traffic that would cause me to be late. Grumbling ensued.

At that same moment, the CD changed songs and the all-so-familiar song, “Give Me Jesus” came on. You know the one,…”Give me Je-e-e-sus, give me Je-ee-sus, you can have all this world, but give me Je–sus. ” Immediately, the Holy Spirit pricked my heart and I knew that if I were to sing the song that was ACTUALLY in MY heart it would sound a little more like, “Give me Je-e-e-sus, give me Je-ee-sus, Give me Jesus, a clean house, nothing left uncrossed off my to-do list, a successful day at work, no traffic and yes, of course, Je-ee-sus.”

I was exposed for what the true passion of my heart was at that moment…and it wasn’t God’s awesomeness…it was my own. I wanted to have it all together. I wanted to be accomplished. I wanted to be comfortable. I wanted to have an easy life. I wanted to approve of first-born, Type A, self. I, I, I, I wanted to be awesome. (Mostly just in my own eyes! I don’t care as much about other people’s eyes as I used to…is that better? I think it might actually be far worse? Haha.)

Anyway, it was cool to see how the Lord merged truth+my sinful heart in a beautiful moment of grace. I practiced “spiritual breathing” the way I was taught in college. I exhaled the yuck and inhaled God’s love and forgiveness by “calling it sin against the Father, calling it forgiven in Christ, and calling on the Holy Spirit to change you.”

My soul was instantly refreshed by the awesomeness of our Great God…but I will say, it’s been a week of moment-by-moment decisions to focus on God’s awesomeness vs. my own or lack of my own.

Thankfully, there IS a sense of awesomeness that we are infused with when we become believers! Dig into Ephesians 1 this week for some nuggets of how God credited his awesomeness to us when we were made new in Christ.

Thoughts for an Ordinary Tuesday

“In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6

It’s official. I am bored. I am never bored. But, when you can’t drive, can only use 1.5 arms, have to strategically time showers that you aren’t actually supposed to be taking yet (doubt my doctor is reading this :)) and have low social stamina, there aren’t a ton of options! I have so much more compassion for my sweet friend Julie, who was on bed rest with Cole for 13 weeks!

Well, anyway, I was sorta moping around the house, eating pistachio nuts (new discovery=amazing snack) when I read this wonderful dose of truth from a blog I like to read from time to time…

“Take one step at a time, every step under Divine warrant and direction. Ever plan for yourself in simple dependence on God. It is nothing less than self-idolatry to conceive that we can carry on even the ordinary matters of the day without his counsel. He loves to be consulted…Consider no circumstances too clear to need his direction. In all thy ways, small as well as great; in all thy concerns, personal or relative, temporal or eternal, let him be supreme. Who of us has not found the unspeakable ‘peace’ of bringing to God matters too minute or individual to be entrusted to the most confidential ear?… If in true poverty of spirit we go every morning to our Lord, as knowing not how to guide ourselves for this day; our eye constantly looking upward for direction, the light will come down. He shall direct thy paths…. Let the will be kept in a quiet, subdued, cheerful, readiness, to move, stay, retreat, turn to the right hand or to the left, at the Lord’s bidding; always remembering that is best which is least our own doing, and that a pliable spirit ever secures the needful guidance…. No step well prayed over will bring ultimate regret.~Charles Bridges (SOURCE)

Just what I needed for this ordinary Tuesday.