It’s crazy how you can give your heart and life to something. It’s even crazier how one day you love it to death and the next day you are so hurt by it. I have learned afresh today that, yes, ministry can hurt.
It hurts to be misunderstood. It hurts to pour your life out and see it seep through the cracks of people’s lives. It’s frustrating to lack tangible results for your constant labor. It’s frustrating to know that your job will never be finished this side of Heaven.
I guess that is probably how every parent feels about their child. It is probably very hard to choose to daily die to self and live for a thankless infant or teenager. It’s probably exasperating to see no end in sight. I’m sure your heart breaks when a child makes a decision that deflates your hopes. I am sure it is draining to wake up every day and live to serve multiple other people in addition to your spouse. Good grief I am exhausted just thinking about it.
Today, I had a rough day…they are few and far between… but today was one. It involved hot tears in the middle of the student union…yikes!
But, during high times or hard times here’s what I know to be true:
“Therefore since through God’s mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart. Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to every man’s conscience in the sight of God. And even if our Gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. For we do not preach ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake. For God, who said, “Let light shine our of darkness,” made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.
But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.
It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.” With that same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak, because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence. All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us and eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4)
Praise God that His ways are higher than ours and praise God for the weekend! :)